Spirituality Malaysia : Living or Dying?

Living or Dying?
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Shamala Tan on 24 November, 2008 04:47:00
 
I think most people have heard of this saying: are you living or dying?
In the last days of my addictions, I finally REALISED what it meant to be dying
and not living my life.
To know in my mind what is dying, is not the same as truly experiencing what
dying in my physical body was. During this time, I was starting to question
about the meaning of my own life, and I took time to just try to clear my head.
The deeper I contemplated, the more I felt and knew my physical body was in a
state of chaos. I became more aware of the unhealthy state I have caused it to
be. On hindsight and with all the work I have done on myself, I realised that I
was so numb to how I was treating my physical body. My body was choked up
literally with toxins in every single cell of my being and every single pore of
my skin. I REALISED that I was not living. Every inhalation of smoke was a dying
process. Every sip of alcohol was contributing to the decay of my organs. I was
dying and I was consciously contributing to its quick demise.
It was one of my wake up calls.
Till this day, I am still 'paying the price' of my negligence, and I am still
dealing with the side effects. I know my liver is not functioning as healthily
as it should but I am pro-actively taking steps to improve things through my
diet, through exercise and also taking suitable supplements. Thank goodness I
had the sense to quit smoking sooner and I did exercises like chi-running to
clear my lungs. To this day, I am still doing chi-running and reaping the
positive benefits.
I made a commitment to LIVE and I am glad I did :-)
© 2008 Shamala Tan